I felt pressure to write good things and to write things that moved people spiritually and emotionally, but I also felt pressure not to disappoint God or do something that would mess up/false start his plan for my life. But I’ve realized that pressure truly opposes purpose.

Emotional healing starts here. It starts with acknowledging that your current emotions do not match what God says or even what the people around you are experiencing and not condemning yourself for it. It’s being at peace with that fact and understanding that God sees you and knows every part of you.

After repressing and suppressing for so long, my feelings and emotions began to subconsciously rule my life without me knowing. As a result, I had given real estate in my heart to pain, trauma, anger, and resentment. Something that might have happened years ago that I thought I’d moved on from would come up and I’d feel affected or triggered in moments that weren’t related.